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  I motioned toward the recorder. “Doesn’t matter what we discuss, before you print anything, I proof read it. No exceptions,” I said sternly. “Is that fucker on?”

  “Yes, it’s on. And, if those are your conditions, I’m fine with that.” She raised the recorder to her mouth. “For the record, I’m Peyton Price beginning my interview with Nick Navarro, the president of the Filthy Fuckers MC. Today’s date is May 7th.”

  I nodded. Agreeing to the interview wasn’t something I did for notoriety or publicity. Making outlaw motorcycle clubs less of a target for the Department of Justice’s overeager agents that seemed to infiltrate them on a daily basis was enough of a reason for me. And, if the article was written properly, the Filthy Fuckers MC could look like a bunch of choirboys.

  I fixed my eyes on hers. “Get to it.”

  “Okay,” she said. “It’s obvious you’re alone. I couldn’t help but notice the only motorcycle here was parked beside my Jeep. It looks, well, pretty rough. Is it yours?”

  “Sure is,” I said with a nod. “I’m not much on electric starters, loud stereos, or windshields. Call me old school, but I’d rather kick start my sled and have the wind in my face. And a coat of paint doesn’t make it any faster, so I don’t have one.”

  She looked confused. “Sled?”

  “Bike, sled, motorcycle, scoot. They all mean the same thing.”

  “Well, for what it’s worth, I like it.” She grinned. “It’s unique.”

  “That makes two of us.”

  “How many men are in your club?”

  “Enough to resolve any problems that we encounter.”

  “How long has the club been in…how long has the club been together?”

  “Since the fall of 2007.”

  “Were you the one who founded it?”

  “The one and only.”

  “Had you ever ridden in an MC prior to starting this one?”

  I shook my head. “Nope.”

  “What prompted you to start the club?”

  “Prompted me?”

  “Yes,” she said. “What in your life changed? What happened to make you feel that starting the club was in your best interest?”

  “The war ended. At least for me.”

  “Were you a veteran?”

  I cleared my throat and glared back at her. “I am a veteran.”

  “Sorry.” She dropped her eyes to the floor. After a short pause, she looked up. “So, you came back from the war, and following your return, you started the club?”

  “Yeah, something like that.”

  She scooted to the edge of the drum. Her bare legs dangled over the edge like bait. “For the sake of this and any future conversations,” she said. “When I speak of an MC, I’m referring to an outlaw motorcycle club.”

  I shifted my eyes away from her legs and chuckled. “I’ll make note of that.”

  “Most outlaw biker clubs are known for adhering to a set of ideals that celebrate freedom. Nonconformity to any facet of mainstream culture is also common within the ranks of MC’s. After the war, did you feel the country had let you down or wronged you?”

  “Nope. I was just sick and fucking tired of the bullshit – the rules, regulations, superiors. I was ready to live life without restrictions.”

  “And what better way to do so than start an MC?”

  I clenched my fist, held it in front of her face, and slowly extended my index finger. “I don’t have to answer to anyone. Society can suck my dick.”

  She glanced at my finger, rolled her eyes dramatically, then continued. “Regardless of your reluctance to adhere to the rules and regulations society has established, they exist nonetheless. Are you of the opinion that you’re above the law?”

  “Not above it, no.” I shrugged. “I have my own set of rules and regulations I adhere to. I think they’re enough.”

  “Give me an example.”

  “Of what?”

  She placed the recorder beside me on the bench and ran her fingers through her long brown hair. “Your rules. What are they?”

  I looked at the recorder, then met her gaze. I didn’t have a rehearsed or published set of rules or regulations; I simply did what I felt was best under my own system of beliefs. With a by the seat of your pants response, I conveyed my opinion. “If you want to be left alone, keep your nose and your mitts out of my business. Don’t fuck with kids, the elderly, or animals or I’ll hunt your ass down. I don’t know, that’s about it.”

  She laughed. “That’s it?”

  I glared back at her. “What’d you expect?”

  She shook her head. “I’m going to recite a handful of rules many choose to live by. I want your opinion regarding each of them.”

  I chuckled. “You may not like it, but I’ll give it.”

  She pulled her phone from her pocket, tapped her fingers against the screen for a few seconds, and then began. “You shall have no other gods before Me.”

  “You planning on listing all ten of ‘em?”

  She looked surprised. “Oh. So, you’re familiar with this? You recognize it?”

  “I’m not some fuckin’ idiot.”

  “I wasn’t insinuating that you were. Are you a religious man?”

  I shook my head. “No.”

  “So. Your thoughts on that? The first commandment?”

  “I believe in God.”

  “I’m not going to list all ten,” she said. “Just the ones I’m curious about.”

  I shrugged.

  “Honor your father and your mother.”

  “I have a great relationship with them both.”

  She cleared her throat. “Thou shall not murder.”

  “I’ll agree with that, but justifiable homicide is different.”

  “What act or acts justify homicide? As far as you’re concerned?”

  “I’ll protect myself and those I care for at any cost,” I said. “And back to what I said earlier. Don’t fuck with kids, the elderly, or animals or I’ll probably show up at your door.”

  “That’s admirable,” she said.

  “What? That I don’t like people who take advantage of those incapable of protecting themselves?”

  She smiled and nodded. “Yes.”

  “When I was in school.” I clenched both of my fists and raised them to my chin. “I beat the absolute shit out of kids who took advantage of other kids. You know, the kids who called others names and shit? I ran ‘em down and pounded their fuckin’ asses.”

  “You bullied bullies?”

  “God damned right.”

  She laughed. “I like that.”

  “Joined the military for the same reason. I was capable of standing up for what others might not have been able to, so I did. I stood up and tried to make a difference.”

  “Did you?”

  “Did I what?”

  “Did you make a difference?” she asked.

  I shook my head. “Sore subject. Next Question.”

  Her lips were full, her skin was without a single blemish, and her hair hung from her head like strands of brown fucking silk. Her eyes were brown, but not like any others I’d seen. They were translucent gold with little brown flecks, making them unique – at least to me. Watching them as she formulated each question was driving me insane.

  “What are the differences between a riding club and an outlaw MC?”

  I stared back at her. “You’re gonna write a story about my club, and you don’t know the fuckin’ difference?”

  “I do know. I want you to tell me.”

  “Fuck that,” I growled. “You tell me your interpretation first.”

  After raking her fingers through her hair, she rubbed her palms together and grinned. “A riding club follows the guidelines of the American Motorcycle Association, and many are sanctioned by the AMA. Outlaw clubs don’t and aren’t.”

  I laughed. “Read that on the internet? AMA’s website?”

  She shook her head. “No.”

  She crossed one of her perfe
ctly tanned legs over the other and then met my gaze. Slowly, I felt my cock began to stiffen.

  “So, in your own words. What are the differences?” she asked.

  I was done answering stupid questions about bullshit she wasn’t going to use in her publication. So far, her questions were nothing more than a half-assed attempt on her part to get to know more about me. If she wanted to know who I was, showing her would be a hell of a lot easier.

  It’d save us both a lot of agony in the long run.

  “I’m done with this question and answer bullshit.” I slid off the edge of the workbench and turned to face her.

  “I’m nowhere near finished,” she complained. “We’re just getting started. I’ll need several hours of interviews for a story.”

  “I wanna fuck,” I said flatly.

  Her eyes widened. “Excuse me?” Her expression was equal parts excitement and shock.

  “All these questions are getting’ under my skin. Let’s fuck.”

  She hopped off of her makeshift seat, made eye contact with me, and cocked her hip to the side. “I’m not going to--”

  “Don’t even start with the innocent girl act.” I reached for my belt. “Take off your shorts.”

  “What makes you think--”

  “Ever since this little interview of yours started, you’ve been lookin’ at me like you want to eat me. Well, here’s your fuckin’ chance.”

  “I’m not some whore. Your little finger-bang thing in the bar was--”

  “Did I say you were a whore?”

  “No, but--”

  “I’m done talking about it. Either take off your shorts, or I will,” I demanded. “All these questions are pissing me off, and your eyes are drivin’ me fuckin’ insane.”

  She chuckled a light laugh. “My eyes?”

  I nodded. “Yeah, your eyes. Now get fuckin’ naked.”

  “Let’s get one thing straight,” she said with a tone of authority. “If these shorts come off, it’s going to be because I want them to, not because you do.”

  Her willingness to stand up to me wasn’t something I was accustomed to, and I glared at her in disbelief. She returned my stare without an ounce of emotion. After standing in wait with a stiff cock for what seemed like forever, I broke the silence.

  “Well…”

  “My pussy, my rules,” she said.

  I chuckled. “I’m listening.”

  And, for the first time in as long as I could remember, I was willing to listen to what a woman had to say.

  Chapter 5

  Peyton

  I couldn’t believe what I was considering. Saying no to Nick Navarro, however, was something I was afraid I would never be able to do. His handsome looks, tattoos, and raw essence weakened me. His remarkable blue eyes may have been partially to blame, but certainly not wholly.

  The adventurous and conservative portions of my being were at war, and the adventurous side was winning.

  I quickly considered my risks:

  Fucking someone I was interviewing for work. I didn’t believe Navarro would tell my boss – or anyone for that matter. He didn’t seem like the type to brag.

  Keeping my private life private after we had sex. He certainly wasn’t going to fall in love with me or stalk me, so my private life would be able to remain just that – private.

  STD’s. There was the risk of sexually transmitted disease, but it could easily be dealt with by producing the two-year-old condom that was floating around in my purse.

  I weighed the risks against the one clear benefit.

  Sex with a tattooed biker. Being fucked by a bearded outlaw biker who was handsome, muscular, mature, covered in tattoos, and had a nice thick cock.

  Ding, ding, ding.

  We have a winner.

  I reached for my purse. After digging through my wallet, I found the ancient condom. I handed it to him. “Here.”

  He stared at the packet as if I had handed him a foreign object. “What the fuck is this?”

  “A condom.”

  He attempted to give it back to me. “I don’t wear condoms.”

  I waved him off. “I won’t have sex without it.”

  “It looks like it’s too fuckin’ small,” he complained. “I doubt I can even get it on. Let’s just fuck.”

  “Remember. My pussy, my rules.”

  His eyes narrowed to slits. “I don’t even know how to operate one of these motherfuckers.”

  “If you want this pussy, you’ll have to figure it out.”

  He bit the edge of the package and tore it open. “I’m about out of the mood.”

  “Shall we get back to the interview?”

  “Just gimme a fuckin’ minute,” he growled.

  I’d never spent a single moment second-guessing a choice I had made. Ever. I had always been proud of my ability to make split-second decisions and make them well. Even the serious ones were generally made quickly, and without any future remorse.

  As I stood and watched Navarro fumble-fucking around with the condom, however, I couldn’t help but wonder if my decision to allow him to fuck me was a good one or not. It was a spur of the moment choice made as a result of extreme desire and overwhelming curiosity. Watching him look at the condom as if he were holding a ticking time bomb wasn’t very reassuring.

  Or sexy.

  Earlier, he said he was about out of the mood. I now shared his lack of desire.

  He held the condom carefully in his left hand while he unbuckled his belt. After what appeared to be a very frustrated effort to push his jeans down to mid-thigh, he gripped his cock in his tattooed hand and began to stoke himself.

  Watching him with his big dick clenched in his fist was a huge turn-on. After six or eight strokes, the massive shaft was rigid in his hand.

  And, once again, I was ready.

  More than ready.

  “Here,” I breathed. “Let me do that.”

  With one hand I reached for the condom, and with the other I fumbled to unbutton my shorts. After a few frustrating seconds of my own, I had my shorts on the work bench, and his cock protected by a thin layer of rubber.

  “What a clusterfuck,” he grumbled.

  Agreed.

  “Where do you, uhhm,” I stammered, looking around for a place to let him fuck me.

  The bench was littered in tools and motorcycle parts and the floor was covered in dirt and grease, leaving the steel drum as my only visible alternative for sex. I didn’t wait for him to respond. I wrapped my arms around the drum and pressed my chest onto the lid.

  “Stand up,” he growled.

  Oooh. Standing up sex.

  Fuck yeah.

  I stood up and turned to face him.

  “Ditch the shirt and the bra,” he demanded.

  I glanced at his jeans, which were draped around his thighs. My eyes dropped to his feet. Scuffed and covered in stains, the lace-up black boots he was wearing were kind of sexy when he was fully dressed, but now that we were getting ready to fuck, they were a distraction.

  I wagged my finger toward his knees. “Ditch the boots and jeans.”

  The glare he returned let me know he wasn’t interested in considering what I wanted. He pressed his hand into the middle of my back and pushed me toward the work bench. As my hips came in contact with the cold steel, he shoved a little harder, forcing me to bend over. His hand slid from between my shoulder blades to the back of my head.

  You like it rough, huh?

  Yeah, me too.

  He pressed my face down firmly on the top of the workbench. I felt the tip of his dick against my pussy, and inhaled sharply in anticipation. Nothing, however, could have prepared me for his girth. I wasn’t ready.

  At all.

  He shoved me completely full of cock in one hard thrust.

  I arched my back and gasped out in response.

  His beard scraped along my neck. The warm against my cheek that followed caused goosebumps to rise along my legs. I fought to raise my head, but he was much to
o strong.

  “I’m going to fuck you senseless,” he breathed into my ear.

  All concerns regarding whether or not fucking Nick Navarro was a good decision immediately vanished.

  It was a great decision.

  He thrust his hips back and forth aggressively, grunting in my ear with each stroke. “I can’t…figure out…if it’s my…big cock…or your…tight little pussy. But fuckin’ you…is like fuckin’…a virgin.”

  I thought I’d been fucked by big-dicked men in the past. I was wrong. They may have been well-endowed by my standard at the time, but Nick Navarro was redefining everything.

  Everything.

  “I think…it’s…both,” I muttered.

  I bit into my lip and tried to keep from crying out. I’d heard the phrase hurts so good many times, and only now had a complete understanding of what it meant. His thick cock was stretching my pussy to an all-new limit.

  And I loved every fucking inch of it.

  “I like…fucking you,” he groaned. “Your little pussy clenches my cock like a vise.”

  Just shut up and keep fucking me.

  I closed my eyes and wondered just what had happened to me. Although I was daring and bold, my interest in men was nil. Having been wronged in the past so many times, I learned to trust no one who grew facial hair.

  Or had a cock.

  Navarro had both and I wouldn’t want him any other way.

  As he pounded himself in and out of me like a man possessed, his scent filled my nostrils. It wasn’t a hint of cologne or deodorant, nor was it a foul body odor.

  He smelled like a man.

  A real man.

  He grabbed a fistful of my hair and pulled it taught. My back arched and my mind reeled at the thought of him fucking me like he owned me.

  “Tell me how much you like this big biker cock,” he growled in my ear.

  Dear God.

  I wanted desperately to speak, but succeeding wasn’t as easy as one might think. I was suspended somewhere between heaven and earth, and talking wasn’t an option.

  He pulled against my hair until his lips met my ear. His warm breath on my neck made my legs go weak. “Say something, you sexy little bitch.”

  If you keep talking dirty to me, I’m going to explode.